So last time I said something about [the next time I blog we will have a new number]
Scratch that!
We received an update email, usually every month or so, that said x amount of approvals and travels !YAY! Some of those families have been waiting so so long. !YAY! They are getting closer to getting their babes!
But no referrals for June's referral group! Boo.
So my impression so far......hurry get your paper work in. All the dossier prep ready. Get approval. Get a number on the wait strip. Wait for referral month. Get a new number.....wait. It's past referral month.....wait some more....referrals? not yet...wait some more....more delays....enough already!
My emotions are on a roller coaster! Excitement. Despair. Suspense. Despair. Ugh!
But I think this feels familiar..... Oh yeah, like not getting pregnant. Meet with OB, take vitamins....wait.....do ovulation kits.....wait....week and half later go through 12 pregnancy tests in 6 days (and yes I was a little compulsive about it) only to say negative.....6 more months of trying later......meet with RE.....wait some more....emotional roller coaster......Excitement. Despair. Suspense. Despair. Ugh!
Enough of my silliness....
I know God has a plan and everything is in his timing. We may not always understand his timings. Ya kno.
It is such a roller coaster! But since there is sooo much out if our control all you can do is hold on for the ride!
ReplyDeleteWell, as a second timer, I will say that the wait gets harder after your match. I thought for sure waiting 9 months to get the match was hard - by month 8 I was practically a puddle of dribbling tearful anticipation. And then post-match, I realized how heartbreakingly hard it is to watch your child grow up somewhere else. I don't tell you this to make you despair about the future, just to liken the whole process to a marathon.. painful, demanding and long term. I often felt frustrated with the adoption timeline especially after 11 years of infertility treatments... (which is another kind of hellish marathon altogether). But I want to give you hope that there is a finish line and your patience will be in tip top shape by the end of this race. Hang in there lady! I will probably have to eat my words in a few months when the wait starts getting to me.
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