Thursday, November 7, 2013

Single Digits Baby!


We found out today we are officially in single digits!!

And by single digits, we are number 5!     Woot woot!

What does that mean for us, it means within 5 months we could know who our child is!  See his/her face!   We found out there is a mix of boy/girl in front of us on the wait strip, that means it really is a toss wether we are matched with a boy or girl!!!
The next referral group is due out in December, but with the past delays, I would expect January.   But seriously, there is a chance our babe could be in that referral group!  Insert clip from "Dumb and Dumber" There's a chance!"  (1 in a million).   Really it's not that far off.
 The last time I spoke to our agency our est. referral is March. This last time when I asked, they both avoided a deffinate estimate.   Am I reading into their response too much.....yes I'm sure.

   But WE ARE SO CLOSE!!!!

I cannot describe how excited I am!  If I could do back hand springs I would.
Literally every where I go!

Praises to Jesus!   He is with us every step of the way.


Friday, September 27, 2013

Hebrews 11:1




"Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see."

Saturday, August 24, 2013

June is over!

So yes June has been over for two months now.  I know that.   But June's significance is referral month!!!   In July we were to know our new number on the wait strip.  July came and went. Our agency explained there was several reasons for the delays and they were still expecting refferals. Into August there is still no news of referrals or our new number.
Then Finally, 3 families were matched with their children.  Yay!

Beginning our adoption journey, we knew it would be a long process.   Stepping back, looking at the time frames, I thought we can handle this.  Every month or so we would get an update, every quarter a refferal group, and we would get an update on our number.  It didn't seem too bad.  We would stay busy, enjoy ourselves with our daughter and families.  Time would pass and we would soon meet our child from Thailand.
  I knew there could be delays with adoption, natural disasters, programs closing, etc.   I don't know why the delays with one referral month set me a little cray cray.  I wasn't thinking "delays will not happen to us". I knew they could.   I didn't start this process thinking that way.  Maybe it was because it was our first number change. Maybe it's God giving me a reality check.   Whatever the reason, please Lord let me handle it with grace.

Sometimes I feel guilty being excited for our new number, with that number change, means a mother has made the hardest decision of her life, another orphan is in the world.  Yet with that, there is a family eagerly awaiting the news of the matching of their child.  There will be less orphans in the world with each referral month.

So we are the last (for us). And the first (for most). This will be our last time in double digits!
We are number.........



10


With that number we were informed our agency is still expecting a March referral for our family.  That is only 7 months away!





Sunday, July 28, 2013

Psalm 55:22




"Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken."

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Glimpse into the Future

Today I found out what it might feel like to get "the call".

Jude an I had an eventful summer day. We went to a play date at the splash park, about an hour in, she put her hands and feet in the spray.  This little girl hates to get her hair and face wet.  As everyone left for nap times, we decided to forgo naps today and head straight to the pool.  As the evening pool crowd arrives we pack up and head home.
We are eating snacks on the couch, trying to gather energy for baths and dinner, I hear my cell phone ringing.  At first I'm thinking what is that ring????  Oh yeah Holt's ringtone.   HOLT's RINGTONE!!!!!!   In a mad scurry I leap over the coffee table, trip on my shoe, and slide into the pool bag where my phone is at the bottom!

[I'm thinking in my head, I just got an email stating refferrals are still delayed and you do not have a new number ( duh).]

At least I made it to the phone....I calmly answer, Hello  (in my raspy, 80 year old smoker voice...summer allergies are killing me and I can barely talk). This little chipper voice says hi this is "girl" from Holt.  (We will refer to her as girl because I don't want to disclose her name, she must be an intern).  "Did you receive the information on your child"

As I stammer "WHAT....Child!"
Girl. "Your child from Holt". And a long pause.
Uhhhmmm.  We are in the process of adopting, what child.....
Girl. "Oh that's what your husband said, ha ha I'm talking about the child you chose to sponsor through Holt.  What do you mean your adopting? Who are you adopting through?"
So I explain to her we are adopting with Holt etc etc.

Really, my heart bout jumped out.    If you just spoke to my husband and he told you the same thing I did. Why did you begin our conversation, with, did you get the info on your child!!!!
I hope she is just an intern cause I'd hate for this to happen to someone else, they might not take it as lightly as I did..... Just annoyed a little.

Ok so after that trial run, I'm ready for the call!

Oh what a day!  I think I got too much sun.  :)

Monday, July 1, 2013

Ugh

So last time I said something about [the next time I blog we will have a new number]

Scratch that!

We received an update email, usually every month or so, that said x amount of approvals and travels !YAY!  Some of those families have been waiting so so long.  !YAY!  They are getting closer to getting their babes!

But no referrals for June's referral group! Boo.

So my impression so far......hurry get your paper work in.   All the dossier prep ready. Get approval.  Get a number on the wait strip. Wait for referral month. Get a new number.....wait.   It's past referral month.....wait some more....referrals?  not yet...wait some more....more delays....enough already!
My emotions are on a roller coaster!  Excitement.   Despair.  Suspense.  Despair. Ugh!

But I think this feels familiar.....  Oh yeah,  like not getting pregnant.  Meet with OB, take vitamins....wait.....do ovulation kits.....wait....week and half later go through 12 pregnancy tests in 6 days (and yes I was a little compulsive about it) only to say negative.....6 more months of trying later......meet with RE.....wait some more....emotional roller coaster......Excitement.   Despair.  Suspense.  Despair. Ugh!  

Enough of my silliness....

I know God has a plan and everything is in his timing.  We may not always understand his timings. Ya kno.



Sunday, June 9, 2013

It's June!

In case you didn't know, June is referral month for our agency.  Our agency has referral groups every 3 months.    Somewhere between 1 and 7 children are placed for adoption.   That means our number on the wait strip will decrease, leading us closer to meeting our Thai Button!   I cannot wait to see what our new number will be....

We are on a private FB group of families adopting or have adopted from Thailand. It is so nice to have this group for support during our long wait.   But it can also make me very anxious (lol).   We were talking about the wait strip the other day, (as soon as referral month starts everyone starts to stir) and it is thought numbers 1-7 are waiting for a girl, with maybe one family open to either gender.   From Number 8 to 14 we know one family requesting a boy, one a girl, and two families open to either gender.    Given we are #14, open to either gender,  that leaves us with 3 waiting for boys or either gender and 3 unknowns ahead of us on the wait strip.   So maybe....if all the stars align and it's in God's plan.....There is a chance we could be matched sooner than we thought.  Maybe.........  There really is no way knowing....but it's fun to think about.

So this has been heavy on my heart, with our group it seems wait times are increasing.  Some families have waited almost 2 years for a referral, and the wait time to bring your child home has increased to averaging 1 year!  I cannot imagine knowing the face of my child and having to wait that long to bring him home.  I pray for God to give me the strength.
I couldn't sleep last night, so randomly I checked the adoption programs from the agency we decided not to go with.   They have a new program, ( that maybe if we chose them they would have offered that program to us) the estimated wait time is 12-16 months! And the age of the child is 6-12 months!  WOW.   Considering  our wait time is estimated 3 years!

 Honestly.   We are not changing programs or even entertaining the idea.   We truly believe God has a plan for our family.  He closed many doors before we found our agency and the Thailand program.
There is absolutely a reason we are here and where we are at this stage in our adoption process.

Last night I opened my Bible App. on my iPad and this is the verse it opened to.......

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you
know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. (James 1:2, 3 NIV)

So this time next month we will know our new number on the wait strip and be that much closer to meeting our little Thai Button.